Vanishing Time


In a world where “time” seems to vanish into thin air while “things to do” keep lingering on with constant hope of catching “time”, I am left to wonder where is time vanishing too?

The alarm rings at 8:00am and I keep snoozing it for an hour hoping to get more sleep yet dreading the wasted minutes that are passing me by. That hour of snoozing is a restless hour, filled with thoughts and continues demands to enjoy my sleep. A battle deep within me makes it impossible to fall back into the wonders of my dreams and away from the schedules of my reality.

I finally push the covers off my body, jump out of bed and rush to the bathroom. It is at this point on that I am unable to relax, every minute counts, every second makes a difference and the whole schedule starts to form itself accordingly. I flip through my clothes in the closet in hopes of finding something I feel comfortable with, knowing that I will be out of the house all day with no hope of coming home to take an hour break I had to choose something that would last me all day long.

Within 10 minutes I am done getting dressed and go off into the TV room to have my mug of coffee and cigarette before I have to rush out of the house. I walk into the TV room to find my mom already there fully dressed and sipping on her coffee in delight watching the news channel. I sit with her as we have a quick update of both our mornings and then immediately finish off my coffee as I move myself towards my laptop to check my e-mails, wondering if there is anything that needs to be done before I have to leave. As it just so happens, there is always something to be done, and so in complete indulgence I dive into work mode, hearing nothing and answering no one. My mom tries to open topics with me and all that keeps coming out of my mouth are the words, “yes”, “oh”, “really” and “hmmmm”. Recently I have learnt to add the word “no” to my response system since I had found myself saying “yes” to things I have no interest in doing or the time to do.

Hours keep passing by as work over takes my entire soul, i can’t seem to stop, I can’t find a way to stop. One thing takes me into the next and into the next and in no time 3 hours have already passed and I haven’t seen the streets yet. I am already running late, my phone won’t stop ringing and I finally pick it up to go through all my bbm’s, my missed calls and any sms’s. I roll away from my desk, switch off the lap top, and rush back into the bathroom to wash my face again, brush my teeth and put on my flip flops. I return back to the tv room to pack up my lap top to take it to work with me and to my dismay my mom has a list of things she wants of me. I stand there on edge, all that is running through my mind is “I have no time, I have no time, I have no time.” Therefore I have not heard 50% of what was requested of me. I kiss her good bye and rush out the door carrying my lap top and hand bag that weights a 100 kilos from the weight of all the notebooks and books I have wedged into it.

At last I am on the road, its already 1:00pm and I am so far away from where I should be. The traffic is insane and I know that I am spending a good hour, if not more, on the road. I pick up my phone, attaché the head set to it and go through all my missed calls and unanswered bbm’s. As I am driving at no more than 3 miles an hour I am able to return all my phone calls and respond to all the bbm’s and sms’s.  Finally an hour later I arrive to work excited to get hold of my lap top again and start working on all the things that I had to cut short to get out of the house. As I park the car and walk towards my work in the Art Café I am bombarded by a whole bunch of people who are there taking classes or asking about the classes we offer there.

Quick summary about my job: It’s a place that me and two other friends decided to open together, a place where people can go and enjoy a few hours in a very artistic environment that provides nothing but art. It was 7 years ago that the idea became a reality and its been taken care of solely by one partner. I had spend a good two years in it then I left town for a good 5 years and finally my partners decided to convince me to come back and be fully involved. I came back to an amazing environment that was filled with people and over 30 different types of creative art classes. Our business had expanded and all the people in Cairo knew the name “Art Café”. I was so proud of my partner, she had done a great job at marketing the place and I was wondering how we were making no profit at all. That is when my role came in, I needed a base for it, a solid base, formats, schedules, prices, cost estimates etc….New branches needed to open up, yet was impossible to do with the lack of any profit we were receiving. We were requested to be more available in different areas in Cairo. We needed to expand in so many ways and that is when all the work began. On the other hand I also had my passions that I needed to pursue, reiki and NLP coaching. And so I revamped a room to turn it into a quiet reiki and NLP room.

So going back to the day: As I walked in to the Art Café I realized that getting any work done on my lap top was going to be near impossible. There were workers there renovating the space outdoors, there were workers inside painting the walls. There were children working on an array of art projects, adults coming in to take their art classes and the whole staff running around like headless chickens. Luckily my partner is there also and we try to find any place to go and have a quick update on the new upcoming art season, to no avail. We are able to exchange a few words every few hours, as we are being asked a tone of other things to do and work on.

By 7pm the day has calmed down and there is just one class taking place and the Art Café is silent with the amazing background music taking over the silence. I take out my lap top and with a joy in my heart, I take a seat to get some work done. I look at my phone and realize there is a whole new set of bbm’s, and missed calls. I decide to return the calls which eat up another hour of my day as the evening plans with friends take place. I do a few NLP’s on friends over the phone to help them out with a few issues and work on 1 or two people in Art Café who need a quick reiki for a certain emotional or physical pain.

Its already 8:30pm and I have not worked on any of the things I needed to work on, my own personal deadlines. I close my lap top, pack my things, say bye to everyone still working in Art Café and head off to my social outing. Another hour in the car, and this time I choose to hear my music blaring on blast to stop my brain from thinking. The music provokes more thoughts and so as I sit stuck in traffic I take out my note pad and jot down all the things running through my mind, my schedule gets even larger.

Finally I get to my destination point, hop out of the car, leave my lap top in the car, take my hand bag as the phone is wedged between my shoulder and my right ear talking to my friends, figuring out where they are located. As I walk in, I take a deep breath and realize what a great feeling it is to disconnect and just hang out with my friends for a bit, somewhere outside of work and all the work things I can’t stop thinking about.

The evening turns out to be very interesting, different friends join in as others leave and I find myself sitting there for at least another 3 hours, enjoying every minute of it. It’s already past 12:00am and I start itching to leave, worried about my sleep and the morning snooze. I finally get up, get in my car again and head home. It’s around 1:30 am as I park the car, exhausted and totally burnt out, my eyes burn, my head is throbbing and my shoulders are completely knotted up.

I get home, go into my bedroom and rip the clothes off my body as I rush to get into the shower. the excitement of putting on my pj’s is overwhelming and I relish every item I put on. Sleep has left me, and I am wide awake again, I go into the tv room, my mom is already fast asleep and so I have time on my own, time to just flip through he tv channels and zone out into a good show or movie. My cats greet me with an amazing amount of love as I take out their brushes and start to groom them while I watch something interesting on tv. Once done, I flop on the couch and get into a state of mind filled with nothing but interest in what I am watching.

Its 2:30 am and finally I am sleepy again, I switch off the tv set, say good night to my cats and head towards my bedroom. I cozy up inside the covers, take out my eye glasses, pick up my book that is perfectly placed on my bedside table, and I start to read. No less than half hour later my book has returned to its designated spot, my glasses are thrown into their box and I am fast asleep, inside my world of dreams and love.

Things are still pending, time has passed me by, and I have gotten only 60% of things done. Time seems to pass me by, life seems to fly by without my being able to catch it. If only I can find Time, if only I can hold it down and tell it to wait…wait for a bit…..wait for me….wait I have so much I have to do, so many things I want to do…..STOP and wait for me.

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Music-Tonight I am Loving you

Driving in my car listening to the news and feeling the weight of the world descend upon my heart i decided to change the channel and listen to something to uplift my state of mind. To my greatest surprise Enrique came blasting out of the radio and i found my cheerful song 🙂

Enjoy 🙂

Buy it -Tonight (I’m Lovin’ You)

I know you want me
I made it obvious that I want you too
So put it on me
Let’s remove the space between me and you
Now rock your body
Damn I like the way that you move
So give it to me
Cause I already know what you wanna do

Here’s the situation
Been to every nation
Nobody’s ever made me feel the way that you do
You know my motivation
Give in my reputation
Please excuse I don’t mean to be rude

But tonight I’m loving you
Oh you know
That tonight I’m loving you
Oh you know
That tonight I’m loving you

You’re so damn pretty
If I had a type than baby it’d be you
I know your ready
If I never lied, than baby you’d be the truth

Here’s the situation
Been to every nation
Nobody’s ever made me feel the way that you do
You know my motivation
Given my reputation
Please excuse I don’t mean to be rude

But tonight I’m loving you
Oh you know
That tonight I’m loving you
Oh you know
That tonight I’m loving you

[Ludacris]
LUDA..
Tonight I’m gonna do
Everything that I want with you
Everythin that u need
Everything that u want I wanna honey
I wanna stunt with you
From the window
To the wall
Gonna give u, my all
Winter n summertime
When I get you on the springs
Imma make you fall
You got that body
That make me wanna get on the boat
Just to see you dance
And I love the way you shake that ass
Turn around and let me see them pants
You stuck with me
I’m stuck with you
Lets find something to do
(Please) excuse me
I dont mean to be rude

But tonight I’m loving you
Oh you know
That tonight I’m loving you
Oh you know
That tonight I’m loving you

Song-The day before you came

A few months ago a dear friend and i spent one evening sharing our passion for music with one another, as we exchanged songs. One song in particular has stuck to me and struck me as a surprise that i had never heard in all those years. A song for ABBA that i had no idea existed. Now three months later, for some strange odd reason i have an obsession with it and i keep playing it on repeat in my car ride to and from work.

The most impressive part are the words, just to think that someone could write a love song that starts from “The day before you came” is incredible. Enjoy the lyrics, enjoy the video…ABBA always seem to know how to make their music work for an eternity of generations.

The Day Before You Came Lyrics

I must have left my house at eight, because I always do
My train, I’m certain, left the station just when it was due
I must have read the morning paper going into town
And having gotten through the editorial, no doubt I must have frowned
I must have made my desk around a quarter after nine
With letters to be read, and heaps of papers waiting to be signed
I must have gone to lunch at half past twelve or so
The usual place, the usual bunch
And still on top of this I’m pretty sure it must have rained
The day before you came

I must have lit my seventh cigarette at half past two
And at the time I never even noticed I was blue

I must have kept on dragging through the business of the day
Without really knowing anything, I hid a part of me away

At five I must have left, there’s no exception to the rule
A matter of routine, I’ve done it ever since I finished school

The train back home again
Undoubtedly I must have read the evening paper then
Oh yes, I’m sure my life was well within its usual frame
The day before you came

I must have opened my front door at eight o’clock or so
And stopped along the way to buy some Chinese food to go

I’m sure I had my dinner watching something on TV
There’s not, I think, a single episode of Dallas that I didn’t see

I must have gone to bed around a quarter after ten
I need a lot of sleep, and so I like to be in bed by then

I must have read a while
The latest one by Marilyn French or something in that style
It’s funny, but I had no sense of living without aim
The day before you came

And turning out the light I must have yawned and cuddled up for yet another night
And rattling on the roof I must have heard the sound of rain
The day before you came


Music- Oceana Cry Cry

I have a friend whom supplies me with an abundance of wonderful songs who lives in Athens. Whenever i go to visit her or she comes to visit me, there always seems to be an exchange of songs. One of the songs she gave me was this one, which i repeated for a good 3 weeks along with a few other songs.

I think i got a bit obsessed with this song cause a part of it i could easily relate to. There was a few lines in the lyrics that fed my sadness which caused me to keep repeating the song. The music is very simple which is evident within the simplicity of the words.

Enjoy 🙂

Click it if you want it: Oceana Cry Cry

When she was a young girl
She used to play with me
I was her best friend
We were inseparately
We loved to ride our bikes
Playin’ hide and seek
Sneaking all the night
Dancing in the street
I look back at the time
Now i realise
She loved to play with fire
I should have seen it in her eyes
I should have seen it in her eyes
Deep inside, you cry cry cry
Don’t let your hopes,die die die
Deep inside, you cry cry cry
Don’t let your hopes,die die die

She fell in love for the first time
He was older than her
Then he made her do things
First she wouldn’t tell
She left everything behind
Couldn’t find a place
Running through the night
Loosing all her faith
She throws away the pain
Turning off her lights
But still she makes it seem like everything’s alright
Like everything’s alright
Deep inside, you cry cry cry
Don’t let your hopes,die die die
Deep inside, you cry cry cry
Don’t let your hopes,die die dïe…

Music-Parachute

Liked this song and i liked the dancing in the video clip especially the very last minute of the dance scene. It is a hopeful love song.



Click it if you want it:Parachute

I don’t tell anyone about the way you hold my hand
I don’t tell anyone about the things that we have planned
I won’t tell anybody
Won’t tell anybody
They want to push me down
They want to see you fall (Down)

Won’t tell anybody how you turn my world around
I won’t tell anyone how your voice is my favourite sound
I won’t tell anybody
Won’t tell anybody
They want to see us fall
They want to see us fall

I don’t need a parachute
Baby, if I’ve got you
Baby, if I’ve got you
I don’t need a parachute
You’re gonna catch me
You’re gonna catch if I fall
Down, down, down

I don’t need a parachute
Baby, if I’ve got you
Baby, if I’ve got you
I don’t need a parachute
You’re gonna catch me
You’re gonna catch if I fall
Down, down, down

Don’t believe the things you tell yourself so late night and
You are your own worst enemy
You’ll never win the fight
Just hold on to me
I’ll hold on to you
It’s you and me up against the world
It’s you and me….(Love)

I don’t need a parachute
Baby, if I’ve got you
Baby, if I’ve got you
I don’t need a parachute
You’re gonna catch me
You’re gonna catch if I fall
Down, down, down

I don’t need a parachute
Baby, if I’ve got you
Baby, if I’ve got you
I don’t need a parachute
You’re gonna catch me
You’re gonna catch if I fall
Down, down, down

I won’t fall out of love
I won’t fall out of,
I won’t fall out of love
I won’t fall out of,
I won’t fall out of love
I won’t fall out of,
I won’t fall out of love
I’ll fall into you

I won’t fall out of love
I won’t fall out of,
I won’t fall out of love
I won’t fall out of,
I won’t fall out of love
I won’t fall out of,
I won’t fall out of love
I’ll fall into you

I don’t need a parachute
Baby, if I’ve got you
Baby, if I’ve got you
I don’t need a parachute
You’re gonna catch me
You’re gonna catch if I fall
Down, down, down

I don’t need a parachute
Baby, if I’ve got you
Baby, if I’ve got you
I don’t need a parachute
You’re gonna catch me
You’re gonna catch if I fall
Down, down, down

Music-Did it again

Now this is one hell of a sexy video…the dancing is immaculate and Shakira really knows how to keep her dancing moves fresh…the guy is amazing also, i just wish he looked a little bit older :p
But the words are very true in their nature, we all go throught the same mistakes over and over again without thinking twice about it; just running after the thrill and then getting hurt all over again.

Click it if you want it: Did It Again (2-Track)

First floor, room 16
Smells like danger, even better
Set your goals, bless our souls
I’m in trouble but it feels like heaven, hey

You were like one of those guys
The kind with a wandering eye
But I said, hey, what the hell
Once in my life I’ll take a ride on the wild side

You were so full of yourself
But damn, were you cute as well
You liked my legs, I liked your moves
Anyone could tell, not a heart could deny that

Did it again, love, I got it all wrong
But it felt so right, I can’t believe it
And all the mistakes that went on for too long
Wish there was a way I could delete it

Second night in a row
Back in trouble, I don’t get it
Gotta keep it down, ’cause it’ll all be cold
We ignore it, it’s getting better, hey

When it comes to men, it’s known
That I end up choosing wrong
‘Cause I always trip and fall
The same old rock and repeat and go back

How blind a girl can be
To miss you hiding your ring
Thought about everything
I’m so naive imagining all that

Did it again, love, I got it all wrong
But it felt so right, I can’t believe it
And all the mistakes that went on for too long
Wish there was a way I could delete it

It may seem to you that I am in a place
Where I’m losing the direction of my life
But I’m sure that this is nothing but a phase
Right back at ya ’cause I’ll survive

It may seem to you that I am in a place
Where I’m losing the direction of my life
But I’m sure that this is nothing but a phase
Right back at ya ’cause I’ll survive

Now see, I can put you where you want to be
Believe that
See, now I can put you where you need to be
You can believe that

Whenever, wherever then, if you let me don’t try to begin
If you considerin’ about stoppin’ this flow, you need a friend
So break me off a piece of that, so sweet, so bad, the kitty cat
In the ‘cuzzi in rome, remember that? I need you soon, I’ll be your groom

This feelin’, this vibe, this night in June
I remember you said your hips don’t lie, love it when they move
I will only bring good vibes in your life, your love consumes
All day, every day I dream of being with only you, and them hips

Did it again, love, I got it all wrong
But it felt so right, I can’t believe it
And all the mistakes that went on for too long
Wish there was a way I could delete it
Did it again, love, I got it all wrong

Music-Univited Freemasons

This is an intreguing song, for a really long time i was unaware of what certain words were and sang them according to my understanding of it. When i would research the lyrics i would think that the words were incorrect, that everyone else was having the same problem  i was with them, until i actually looked up the words in the dictionary to be able to see why every site had those same words. So here is the song and here are the definitions of the lyrics.

Its a powerful song for women, very much in relation to the post i just posted “Desired Fruit”

I love how Freemasons take songs and remix them, they do a great job at it.

enjoy 🙂

Definitions of words in lyrics
1-Stoic: One who is seemingly indifferent to or unaffected by joy, grief, pleasure, or pain
2-Heartening: To give strength, courage, or hope to; encourage

3-Slight: disregard, neglect, overlook mean to pay no attention or too little attention to

Like anyone would be
I am flattered by your fascination with me
And like any hot-blooded woman
I have simply wanted an object to crave
But you, you’re not allowed
You’re uninvited
An unfortunate slight

Must be strangely exciting
To watch the stoic squirm
Must be somewhat heartening

To watch a burning shepherd
But you you’re not allowed
You’re uninvited
An unfortunate slight

Like any uncharted territory
I must seem greatly intriguing
You speak of my love like
You have experienced love like mine before
But this is not allowed
You’re uninvited
An unfortunate slight

I don’t think your unworthy
I need a moment to deliberate

Music-Innocente

Beautiful song, lovely voice and the words are  true in their meaning for those who have fallen in and then out of love.

Enjoy 🙂

Click this if you want it: Innocente

You can’t see my eyes
You can’t see my eyes
They don’t see yours
Hear me when I say
They don’t mind at all

It’s the rain that I hear coming
Not a stranger or a ghost
It’s the quiet of a storm approaching
That I fear the most
It’s the pain that I hear coming
The slightest crystal tear, drops to the ground In silence, when my love is near.


Darling, when did you fall? When was it over?
Darling when? When did you fall? When was it over?

It’s marching through my door now
The stony cold of lonesome
A bell tolls for my heart and then my lonesome song begins
It’s marching through my door now
The stony cold of lonesome
A bell tolls for my heart and now my lonesome song begins

Darling, when did you cry? I couldn’t hear you
Darling when? When did you cry? I couldn’t hear you
I suppose it is the price of falling in love
I suppose it is the price of falling in love

It’s the rain that I hear coming
Not a stranger, not a ghost
Of the quiet of a storm approaching
That i fear the most
It’s the pain that i hear coming

The slightest crystal tear drops to the ground
In silence when my love is near
It’s marching through my door now the stony cold of lonesome
A bell tolls for my heart and now my lonesome song will end

Darling when did we fall? When was it over?
Darling when? When did we fall? When was it over?
I suppose it is the price of falling in love.

I suppose it is the price of falling in love.

Music- Mad Love Anees

I have a whole entire story to tell you about this new artist. This will come in time, as for now all you need to know is that Anees is an old friend from back when i used to live in Montreal. He was like my male protector and mentor and we both loved and cherished George Michael, we also loved to dance with such passion. After Montreal we lost touch with one another. Eleven years later i went out to a club in Dubai, and low and behold i bump into Anees and its as though not a single minute had passed, everything was exactly the same.

I am very proud to say that he has just finished his first album which is being sold in Virgin records and he also made a video clip that is very impressive. So i HAVE to share this with you cause i am very proud of all what he has done so far with his life.

Truly Enjoy 🙂

Music-Grenade …..WAW

I am driving back home today and i come across this song on the radio and think WAW……how amazing, what a love song. Yes it has been a long time since i have heard love songs.

Bruno Mars also has other songs which i will also post, it’s interesting how he has decided to do love songs and really nice ones too where it is simple and not all sexually oriented, more of the pure love we all remember back in high school.

enjoy 🙂

If you want it click this : Grenade Bruno Mars Doo – Wops & Hooligans-

Easy come, easy go
That’s just how you live, oh
Take, take, take it all,
But you never give
Should have known you was trouble from the first kiss, Had your eyes wide open –
Why were they open?
Gave you all I had
And you tossed it in the trash
You tossed it in the trash, you did
To give me all your love is all I ever asked, Cause what you don’t understand is
I’d catch a grenade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
Throw my hand on a blade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
I’d jump in front of a train for ya (yeah, yeah , yeah)
You know I’d do anything for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah) Oh, oh
I would go through all this pain, Take a bullet straight through my brain,
Yes, I would die for ya baby ; But you won’t do the same

No, no, no, no
Black, black, black and blue beat me till I’m numb Tell the devil I said “hey” when you get back to where you’re from
Mad woman, bad woman,
That’s just what you are, yeah,
You’ll smile in my face then rip the breaks out my car
Gave you all I had

And you tossed it in the trash

You tossed it in the trash, yes you did
To give me all your love is all I ever asked Cause what you don’t understand is
I’d catch a grenade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
Throw my hand on a blade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
I’d jump in front of a train for ya (yeah, yeah , yeah)
You know I’d do anything for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah) Oh, oh
I would go through all this pain, Take a bullet straight through my brain,
Yes, I would die for ya baby ; But you won’t do the same

If my body was on fire, ooh You’ d watch me burn down in flames You said you loved me you’re a liar Cause you never, ever, ever did baby…
But darling I’ll still catch a grenade for ya
Throw my hand on a blade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
I’d jump in front of a train for ya (yeah, yeah , yeah)
You know I’d do anything for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah) Oh, oh
I would go through all this pain, Take a bullet straight through my brain,
Yes, I would die for ya baby ; But you won’t do the same.
No, you won’t do the same,
You wouldn’t do the same,
Ooh, you’ll never do the same,
No, no, no, no